I live in Germany so they are even in cities :(
Yeah the soil thing is difficult for me. I just wish there was a healthy world without any kind of ~ thing. I love the idea of gardening, planting my own food and stuff, but it takes about 20 minutes in nature for me to realize that is a fantasy self. I like nature, I just don’t want to be around it. At all.
Well that can be less of a wonder and more of a curse. I have a very huge phobia of earthworms, and I can see them very well. People who know me well go outside and are like “it’s all clear, I checked!” and then I go outside and I see them everywhere.
I also get “Oh just don’t look down” by people who I tell this to all the time. Like, sure, stepping on that will totally be ok as long as I don’t see it? That’s not how this works.
Same goes for these stupid tiny green caterpillars hanging from trees. You wear hats to protect yourself from the sun. I wear them as head condoms against these fuckers. But the truth is I see them from miles away. Miss me with that shit.
Born and raised in Germany, I have been a foreigner for 33 years. They had finally changed the ruling about double citizenship, and I was finally ready to apply. But this whole Israel stance is such a disgrace. So far I have not handed an application in, I feel too ashamed. I cannot imagine wanting to join a tribe that does what it does right now.
Right now the front page of the state news features that a hamas video was released and shows the hostages being very thin. I am raging. Yes it is awful. But you have thousands of starving children in Gaza. And you’re doing this on purpose. Hundreds of thousands of people dead, the rest has such a trauma, if they miraculously make it out alive, the trauma will epigenetically be passed on for generations and generations to come. And somehow your focus is still on 50 people? On poor Israel?
Did you just assume all dinosaurs tasted the same? Or are you asking about a specific dinosaur species?
Here’s an anecdote: When I studied abroad, I met a guy who was in his master’s program for psychology, and he wasn’t convinced that phobias were a real thing and not something else. Some day, we tried to get home to the dorm through the rain in the dark, and he eventually ended up carrying me home. Before we said good night, he told me that he now has finally seen someone with a phobia, and now believes they are a real thing.
I am actually scared of all wormy creatures, ie long, no vertebrate, no legs or more than 10. That also means I am scared of bugs and flies, not because I am scared of them - I am scared of their kids. (I haven’t taken the trash out in 8 years or so.)
And to me it makes only sense. I cannot understand how others aren’t scared to death. I cannot explain what it is, I can tell you this: it is not just disgust. It is not just their form or smth. It’s a genuine fear. I get tense just writing about this. I would never do therapy because to me the thought of being ok with it is not appealing. I don’t want to be ok with it. Fuck that. Y’all should do therapy to realize that you’re crazy for being ok with it. (I’m joking, I know that’s wrong, but this is 100% how it feels.) I would rather chop off my arm than touch it. I would, and I mean this, rather let my mother die, than touch it. I regularly reevaluate these statements and they are still true.
I am fine with snakes and spiders tho lol.