Looks comfy 🥰

Ich bin mir nicht ganz sicher, aber die Verwendung der SS-Rune stellt meines Wissens eine Straftat dar. Ich denke es wäre besser diesen Beitrag zu löschen.

WLAN verbunden und Kadsen und Sonne sind die Phasen, die am meisten mit der Realität zu tun haben.

It’s interesting how stories can be so similar. My partner and I are also together over a decade in which I gradually shut down exploring my gender and forced myself into the man role, down to a point where I had to really turn things around to heal. I think it’s quite motivating to have this outlook for a life worth living for. Lately I feel so settled in with my gender identity, that I am actually not depressed when I wake up anymore. Also, I’m less and less anxious about coming out step by step which feels very healthy. 💜

I have a song in my playlist since 10+ years, which is about being true to yourself. It didn’t come up on random for long. And I cried happy tears when I heard it again recently. Cause I finally understand what being true to myself means. 😌

This is what I’m talking about

https://blahaj.zone/@lexihexi

there is lemmy as a better Reddit but also a whole mix of other servers that offer a better Twitter in the fediverse.

Being here helped me greatly with finding myself. Feel free to follow me, if you create an account. 🥰

Hey hey! Sorry for getting back to you only after so long. And also sorry for the way too long text I wrote now. 😓 (I don’t feel bad, cause I learned that’s not so healthy, but I still wanted to say I’m sorry)

My partner was shocked but is also my biggest ally and we have slowly worked through this. Me finally coming out was quite overwhelming for both of us and made for some artificial rift. In hindsight, I think going with a coming out would have also been possible. Just slowly starting my transition in style and behaviour. Why I think this felt like an artificial rift is, because I have always been me. And my partner always new that side of me. That I can now own this and put away the masking is not that big of a change after all.

On bodily transitioning, I feel very similar. I’m anxious of my health and libido.

What I have noticed though is, that while accepting myself as is, I grew a lot better at self care. Before my inner coming out I was always masking a look and behaviour like an armour. After my inner coming out dysphoria was often overwhelming and I gave up hope for myself and didn’t take more that absolutely necessary to be ok looking for work.

It took me 5 years to figure out I can be trans and choose only the transition steps that fit me. Though I strongly felt the need to fit in as what was my understanding of being trans for the longest time.

Now I am surely still not always super happy with my body, but accepting I’m trans helped me a great deal to take good care of myself. And now my slightly more carefully picked look, cuter (but very casual) outfits, and wearing nail polish , give my euphoria from time to time.

I don’t wanna bother you too much, cause whatever transition steps you do, will be your journey. I personally just felt very hollow on many parts of this journey cause I attacked myself for not being “trans enough” which mostly annoys me in hindsight. And now on days or weeks we’re I just can’t really be me (yet) I still know who I am and don’t feel disappointed by myself. 😊

I can highly recommend looking (via queermed) for queer group therapy or similar. This helped me a great deal. 💜

You can happily add me on blahaj.zone Calckey if you feel like staying in touch. 😊

Hi Nen! Thanks for sharing this! Weren’t I so scared of any sort of meds, I’d be on estrogen since 2 years as well. I think being genderfluid is one the labels that are a bit harder to apply to oneself. It’s a label that gets a very stereotypical wrap in pop-culture though in fact in undermines all stereotypes and gives us room to be the best version of ourselves every other day (and also room to be annoyed about pronouns xD) I also rock cute nailpolish, slight makeup with my curly bob and a beard. Took me long enough, but I love it.💜

Thank you for sharing your current struggles! I feel what you describe by a lot. I actively pushed back against my inner coming out for 2-3 years cause I was so afraid. And now somedays I’m really ok and other days, especially when there are social situations where I’m forced into my old shell, I feel horrible and like nothing will ever get better for me.

So, yeah I think that’s totally normal, also your fears of coming out are super understandable. I’m also afraid of a big coming out, so instead I go slow tiny steps. Wear slight makeup or very casual nail polish when I meet people who I slowly want to unlearn that I’m not the cis person they think I am (and I worked so hard to pretend to myself and everyone else I was).

Also concerning drastic changes, of course this feels like a lot, but we have always been who we are, so maybe these changes are just something to work through at whatever pace is possible right now.

To give you my timeline, I figured out I’m not cis in 2018. I actively ignored that cause it felt threatening to my live’s situs until 2021. I panicked so hard cause I did not understand gender as a spectrum and was also very convinced that medical changes are a must have. Mid 2022 I realised I’m nonbinary and somewhat genderfluid and since then I’m working on accepting myself. And only recently I felt maybe it’s not that big of a deal, cause I’m just me and it’s all gonna be ok.

I think you are on a great path to exploring yourself and I wish you all the best for it!! 💜

Feel free to ask me more questions and sorry for the wall of text.

Hey Vibia! You have such a cute name!!

I don’t know if that’s the meaning of your name, but it definitely sends good vibes! 😊

Jepp, die Fahrlässigkeit von modern Solutions müsste als DSGVO Verstoß geahndet werden.

Die ursprüngliche Abweisung der Anklage war eine super kompetente Entscheidung die Hoffnung macht.

Diese nun doch zuzulassen ist sinnbildlich wie eine Anklage wegen Körperverletzung bei 1. Hilfe-Maßnahmen.

Was die Staatsanwaltschaft da verzapft ist wirklich bitter. Und die Fa. treibt sich mit dem betreiben der Strafanzeige hoffentlich PR-technisch wohlverdient in den Ruin.