You might be thinking of the 1997 book Foundations of Geopolitics by the Russian ultranationalist and neofascist Aleksandr Dugin.

There have been many reports over the years that it’s popular amongst those close to Putin - and there are definitely comparisons to be drawn between the book and actually occurring events.

The rule of the 196 community is that you’re supposed to post a submission of your own before leaving, and it’s customary to include the word “rule” in your post in reference to that rule.

In short, it’s another hormone.

It’s still debated whether and when it’s useful for trans women to take, and it can therefore be difficult to find a doctor who’ll prescribe it - but some people who do take it report increased breast fullness / roundness, and increased libido.

There’s little risk associated with taking it, so a fair amount of transfemmes try it out just to see whether it produces desirable effects for them.

Prog is progesterone.

I’m sorry to hear that you’re struggling, but remember that to transition is a huge step and it’s very common for people to have some doubts along the way.

As you say, I think it’s unlikely that a cis person would accept hormones if they were offered freely, let alone take the steps to acquire them. I certainly don’t think that a cis person would feel euphoric about being given the option.

But if you do start taking hormones and find that you don’t like the effects, it’s okay to just stop. It’s rare, but I’ve known people to start and shortly thereafter stop because they didn’t vibe the early mental or later physical changes. Nobody worth your time will judge you for it.

Whichever decision you make, I hope that you find happiness and freedom from anxiety!